Women's Day.....

Yup..here in moscow they're taking men and women's day far more seriously than back in malaysia...we've even get a public holiday for these,so i think it's damn good hahaha..

anyway bought a small cake and choc to give as a gift...after all i couldn't make a proper dinner for her,yea sincerely at first din thot of it but when i just remembered and tried to plan felt so worried and afraid if it could kacau her and take her time for study,so decided just a plain simple celebration...

of course i hope she wont mind,hope she would appreciated my wish more than anybody's wish to her..............

and to all women...happy woman's day!

a beautiful,adorable and unique god's creature..=))

For you

Ehua Goh

吴裕华

when my world turns upside down~~

uh...today had been very terrible for me,very unpleasant..argued in the morning,din talk for the whole day till night..and before sleep only talk again....

i look into me,ya,me myself...was i too much in agony and pride,no humility on my own side,no rational of being like this,a ridiculous sick?

i dunno..i'm lost..i dunno which one is the right thing to be done,which one is not..man i'm hurt dude.....i dunno what else i could think right now...feeling like every step that had been taken has turned up to be a wrong one....

maybe it's my fault...i'm sorry...

i feel like withdrawing myself to my own cave........

i wanted to...

but failed...

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I felt hypocrisy surged around me..go away...you...ya...away...am feeling terrible of you...

come...share...passion....desire....affection...NONE!...dead...blank note...full of lies...full of shit..

"a man always find a solution of his own,he would never able to talk about it to others,not even the loved ones.a woman just want to talk to others when she tried to face her problems,even the thing she talked could not make any sense at all.could ye imagine if the man embrace her,and listen properly to her when she is in trouble?and the woman comfort and understand the sweetness of silence in a guy's world?take a deep breath......." MR GRAY

Urgh~!

time has slowly passed,slipping through this cold weather here at moscow, and my second term in my second year started last week.o my bad,my fault,my laziness i could not find inspiration to write this few weeks.

Winter examination has passed very well for me indeed,but sincerely i felt that i did not do enough to deserve it.Here exam cheating is almost necessary,how wonderful life could be for one side,but on the other side made me think of wtf* that i have done,didn't i realize i am given a 2nd chance already to here?oh oh..i am so forgetful,silly prick.and on the exam day me n Ehua we left our credit examination book,and i run all the way to metro station and,try to get myself back home quickly (how in the world i could make the train go faster??)and get back to the building,just to be told that "oh Im sorry you can come again on 25th to take exam with all the re-seat people" because im fucking* 5-mins late!it's a record mate,when i go back-and-come back in 30mins,it usually takes 50mins-1hr to dothat!

then came 2 weeks holiday,spend my time at this place while other peeps went around europe.naah i didn't mind because maybe i'm planning for the States next winter hahaha..but it still just a dream,that hell* yeah i hope to make it real..

The holidays spent at home,went to Kremlin museums,ice sculptures,shivering around in the coldness,but it's cool!it just really like spending a "real" holiday at this city..

but man,the only thing that made you pissed off* most here is the coldness of russian people themselves..it's hard adjusting here when people staring at you just because you're dark-skinned,as if they are seeing a monkey sitting inside the metro with them!

class started already,and even though i,ya i admit i am,a lazy student,i felt the burden to start taking this whole study thing seriously.yeah,i have to get all my shit* together and stop to mess around anymore..and right now the problems keep coming in,now with the house problem.hope it would be settle quickly!then can concentrate in what i am doing now~!

till then,so simple,yet i feel some kind of relief........

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."