Urgh~!

time has slowly passed,slipping through this cold weather here at moscow, and my second term in my second year started last week.o my bad,my fault,my laziness i could not find inspiration to write this few weeks.

Winter examination has passed very well for me indeed,but sincerely i felt that i did not do enough to deserve it.Here exam cheating is almost necessary,how wonderful life could be for one side,but on the other side made me think of wtf* that i have done,didn't i realize i am given a 2nd chance already to here?oh oh..i am so forgetful,silly prick.and on the exam day me n Ehua we left our credit examination book,and i run all the way to metro station and,try to get myself back home quickly (how in the world i could make the train go faster??)and get back to the building,just to be told that "oh Im sorry you can come again on 25th to take exam with all the re-seat people" because im fucking* 5-mins late!it's a record mate,when i go back-and-come back in 30mins,it usually takes 50mins-1hr to dothat!

then came 2 weeks holiday,spend my time at this place while other peeps went around europe.naah i didn't mind because maybe i'm planning for the States next winter hahaha..but it still just a dream,that hell* yeah i hope to make it real..

The holidays spent at home,went to Kremlin museums,ice sculptures,shivering around in the coldness,but it's cool!it just really like spending a "real" holiday at this city..

but man,the only thing that made you pissed off* most here is the coldness of russian people themselves..it's hard adjusting here when people staring at you just because you're dark-skinned,as if they are seeing a monkey sitting inside the metro with them!

class started already,and even though i,ya i admit i am,a lazy student,i felt the burden to start taking this whole study thing seriously.yeah,i have to get all my shit* together and stop to mess around anymore..and right now the problems keep coming in,now with the house problem.hope it would be settle quickly!then can concentrate in what i am doing now~!

till then,so simple,yet i feel some kind of relief........

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

.....III

pujukan...is something im not good at...and im scared...really scared me....when time like this come again...im really bad at this thing...pujuk,advise and sort of...i dunno how now...

i'd lost someone because of it...and im afraid it would happen again this time..................

give me strength.......

.... II

still no title,i just keen to keep on writing,because of my unstable emotion tonight keep my bed far away from my sight,i just couldnt sleep...

bear in mind,what happened now must be related to what had happened yesterday..what had happened yesterday must be connected to what occured on the day before..and the list goes so on...and im disgusted,feeling the hatred towards those who forgot the past...

but me myself has been i a lot of mess,and made me thinking why we keep pointing to other people..why not revise and learn the truth about our mistake..why not blaming ourselves,why can't we build a positive thinking towards other people...yet,the thinking is still playing with my mind,imagining that im at the other side,and wondering why "i" blaming "me"...arrogance of human being..

and why something exhilirating at the beginning could turn out to be a terrible moment,why...i just coldnt understand,why must a smile ended up with a cry......

anyway instead of biochem i've done dan brown....hu

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no title.....i just eager to write back as i had left this bloggy thing for such a longgg longg period..not that i dont want to update,but malas plus no connection for almost a year plus other things makes my blog deserted hahaha...

my moscow life has been changing,as time goes by,and now winter come again...i've read somewhere,i think lonely planet,said moscow at this time is a winter wonderland!its truly amazing,and interesting as i couldn't find what thing is cool and wonder in this -20 to -30 degrees,it's frozen like hell..haha...but at least its sunny,so it looks beautiful...typical cold moscow...haih~~

my life,such a fluctuation..up and down,happy but terribly jaded,sad but not at it's worst,everything just keep coming and testing,sometimes tiring,sometimes happily managed even exhausted,sometimes ended in deeply wounded,but luckily till then still a light at the end of the tunnel...

missing old friends as usual,but The Almighty knows what is better for us,might time and space between us keeping us in a full appreciation towards each other..aite mates..

with ehua,everything not so smooth..some parts really made me happy,giving me strength,but others..maybe my fault,and my fault and my fault,hope my strength will remain there for her~~

beauty in the beast theatre....

circus,theatre,dolphin,football matches, cheered things up a bit in a hard time..really enjoying every bits of it..haha..

simple and brief,what i have left out...~~

hidupku.di.sana.sini.=)

salam..=)
sudah lama,jarang bebenor berblog..haiihh =( ku lupe nak wish kan lawi bday nye semalam..lawi so sory hepi 21st bthday weh..ko la sahabat aku,yang same2 amik 12 paper mase final kat KY..yang maen teka teki dalam klas mr vroege...hehe..may a year older makes u thousands years wiser n healthier,n happier!!=)

uih..banyak yang terjadi....penaklukan palestin..haiihh..rencah2 dunia yang x brape sedap didengar..huhu..bagaimane naseb saudara2 di sane..alangkah bertuah kite...mesti membantu walau ape care sekalipun...

bday aku...hehe..thanx pada semue yang wish..kawan2..hehe..pza yang bagi satu post kat aku dlm blog die..hehe..n ehua..celeb my day..thanx sayang!=)

then chrstms n nyear celeb...holiday n exams..haihh..what a life i've been living in...pray to god for all the happiness yang Dia kurniai..

19hb..sampai ke london..insyaAllah..mahu berjumpa teman2..kesemua..sudah rindu..kamu semua..marilah..marilah..rindu...rindu..pada kamu...=)

kembali :)

salam..
lame gile aku x update nih...maklumle x dapat2 internet..nih pon menumpang bilik orang jeh..haha
hidup di russia macam biase2 je...macam kat malaysia..ramai ko leh jumpa orang kite kat sini...ramai gile..surpluss wo..hahaha..nway missin kwn2 kolej so much...jaoh weh aku ngn korang..sedeh2..huhu...tapi mngenangkan kisah2 lame dok maen kuat sgt kat kolej padan la muke aku..huhu

Moscow...
name uni aku,mma...biase2 je..heh..blaja pon cam biase..ade cikgu yang leh ckp english fluent,tp ramai cam sket2 la..sebab sini mmg diorang gune bahasa dorang..ruski...so susah aku sbb aku mane ade basic weh...kos hidop lak mahal...x padan ngan elaun....mahal nak mampos...inflation tiap2 bulan,kdg tiap2 minggu..hampeh...ade few things murah...Rokok,vodka,beer,pad pempuan...hahahahaha marlboro 20 30roubles wo...1rm=7roubles...murah2..tapi org sini ramai x mesra...lagi satu orang tua forang kuat kua jln2 even winter,ngn marah2..haha...cuace?sejok bleh blah la..mase snow turun mls gile nak kuo...huhu...buat kotor sluar je...makanan act susah2 gak,pandai2 la...klas?aku p klas pagi2 sejam la...penat weh..jaoh..tu da naek metro tu...kalo jaln mati la...sape la buat bandar besar2 nih...n orang sini act ramai racist...tym aku p tgk bola spartak lawan zenit dorang buat bunyi monyet kat aku..cibai betol..

jalan-jalan?
moscow kalo stakat nakp jln2 aku rase layan gak la...tapi untuk stay sini x payah la..hidop susah wo...2 je bende aku respek,metro efisyen ngn org sini hormat zebra crossing...hahaha...nanti la aku cite lg..penat la weh penat..hehe..
rindu kawan2 weh...ingat nak p lawat2 bulan 1 ni...
salam....

:)

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